okay so i lied, im going to post some more, i know im a fag but im boreder thana nyone can ever imagine! i've been in north bay for 2 days and i miss the sault already. yeah that's right i miss the stupid boring sault! and i miss everyone in it, i was home sick when i got to echo bay ! yeah that's like half an hour outside the sault :( im pathetic!  anyways since i've been here i've been sick and alergetic so its been not that fun :( no shopping no swimming no four wheeling no dirt biking no nothing! i had the change to do all that stuff and i didn't want to cause i didn't feel good! today we went fishing, and i didn't fish i layed down on the bow of the boat and fell asleep! yeah that's right what happens when you fall asleep on a boat, in the sun, when its hot you get fucken sun burnt! so my face is burnt to shit and i have heat stroke! ;) woo nothing better then heat stroke. i might be going home tomorrow but i might have to go to mathans camp :( i don't want to though i just wanna go home so i can see everyone and so i can partayyyy! anyways, its getting late kinda and i think im leaving early, so im going to go get reads for beds and then im out, lata hotties
xo kay

i give up on this stupid live journal shit, i wont be posting anymore

okay so this is officially the most boringest day EVER! it's 20 to 3 and im in math, yeah that's right, im in math on a computer learning a WHOLE lot, we just did a test and i know i failed and if i didn't then we're going to throw a friggen party because it's the only test i have passed ALL year ahah yeah so im pretty much a failure i know, but anywhoo! onto the goods, i haven't posted in a biggilean yearss i knoww! i usually just come on here for quotes. the last week was soo boring we're so close to the end of school it's not even funny, this is the last fricken week woo! kay anywas this weekend was soo much fun, well a little bit to much fun .. anywhoo this was my weekend

Friday : 
went to ajs with alee, kate, kar, geo, cody, parr, christina & jeffrey
got trasheddddd
went to alicias for a sleepover : )
crying and hugging in the middle of traffic with the girls ahah
DON MEGA !
waking up with carmel corn stuck ALL over uss ahaha

Saturday :
went to ajs again with kar & geo
got semi trashed, not as much as friday though!
dancedddd with those sexys ahaha
"im having trouble picking out the drunk people" "wanna know whose drunk IM DRUNK captain yellow shirt!"
lmfao! ahah
had to ride my bike home :|, i thought i was dead by the way

Sunday : 
umm, i can't really remember, i don't think i did anything i wasn't feeling to well that day ahaha

woo, kay it was sooo funny this weekend, wow, defeinetly can't wait to see all those sexy pictures, ill be posting them on my site whenever alicia gets around to sending themmm, they're definetly hawttt

anywhoo the bell is going to ring soon so im outtttt

ps matt sauve is a GOOF!
i only wrote that cause he's watching me ahaha

laterrrr hommiessss ; )
xo kay

i live for the nights i'll never remember with the people i'll never forget

k woo sitting here at jefferys on saturdayy night, geordon had to leave cause he's grounded :( so i stuck with horny & hornier ahaha LOVE YOU KARLEY! woo! kay anyways having a pretty fun long weekend so far, last night me and katie and annie went to bridges for a partyyy and it was totally crazyyy! soo fun! poor geordon was piss drunk ahah he had a rough night! im at my dads for the WHOLE weekend, it's not that bad i guess.. anywhoo tonight me and karley went to jefferys with geordonnn! this is liek the only time im going to see geordon because he's grounded for a long time ahah, but anyways, we watched some movie with nick cannon i can't remember what it's called and i can't rememeber what happened in it aha, oh well, i like this, i miss hanging out with karley & jeff & geordon, they're my favourite :)anywhoo, i just dicided to post quick because im lonely now that geordons gone :( and karley and jeff are busyyyy!! ahah woo, anywhoo i guess im outtt for a bitt! cioazz

are you afraid of leaving tonight,
cause i am,
im lost without you *

woo! kay im so excited! I MADE THIS LAYOUT! kinda ahah but whatever, its shit but i made it so im excited about it, anyways, the starting of the may long weekend! should be jacked right? WRONG, i have to go to my friggen dads, im probably not going to be able to do anything fun, im probably not going to get drunk at all, and i have the worse cramps EVER!, yeah so, this is the greatest start ever! some things are REALLY bothering me, could be that im moody as hell, or that something about someone is REALLY PISSING ME OFF! but who cares right, its not like their going to change for me, so i should just give up trying, anyways, tonight im supposed to go to bridges with the girls, i don't really want to though, because there's some people there that i DON'T want to see, i don't want to hang out with, i see enough at schooll, jeeezzz, pretty shitty, anyways, i have to go get my shit together to go to my dads, im thinking about packing my laptop to ahah, i NEEDDDD it, oh well maybe, ahah so im outtt, probably wont post again for a LONG time, or the end of may long weekend anyways!
peaceeeeee *
xo kayy

now and then
when i see your face
it takes me away to that special place
and if i stare to long
i'de probably break down and cry
sweet child of min

arghh not a good day already, its only second period and im dieing! at least i have a hottie supply teacher :P
im wet & cold and i wanna go home!

kay wow, this weekends been kinda busyy i guess, it wasn't the greatest, but it was times ten better then sitting at home and doing jack shitt! anywhoo! on friday the girls came over and we got drunkkk & went to the dance, yes, shut up, all five of us were together, and we didn't kill anyone, now THAT'S progess! ouu and as if we did shots to black betty, that was like out goal in life ahah, it was fun, well for me it was fun, i had an awesome time, defeinetly have some crazyy pictures (ouch) ahah, saturdayy faught with my bitch all day, then went to allys birthday, bowling wooo! ahah, it was funn! i didn't wanna murder any of the little dirtbags there! woo! anywhoo it's sunday and i don't think anythings going on, i have to see geordonnn thoughh, holy shit as if we've only been together for three months today! it feels like so muchh longerrr woahh!, it's mothers day so im probably gunna have to go to my grandmas :| anywhoo ahah, i have a shit load of homework i have to do but i don't wannaaa, hate ittt! anywhoo, probably the last update for a whileee!
im outtt ; peacee ;)
kay

should have done something,
but i've done it enough,
by the way your hands were shaking,
rather waste some time with you *

ahah funniest layout ever! ahah i gotta jett, post laterrr *

kay, fuck, another lovely day, well actually it was good, but i unno im still feeling horrible, like shit actually, like i don't wanna see anyone, i fake so much it's not even funny, i should probably stop being sucha fucken lier, but whatever, my lifes based on lies, everything pisses me off so much, why can't shit go my way for once, why can't i actually be happy, instead of lieing about it, or faking it, fuck, i hate everything so much,
fuck all of this
im going to bed

kayla;fucken;wheeler.

mkayy, haven't updated in a while, been busy with school & detention & worse im super sickk
im pretty sure im going to fucken die, like arghh
kay anyways
im feeling it again, that feeling where im lost & i dont know what i should do
i love the way things are, it's perfect, but im scared :S, im so friggen scared that if i do or say something wrong,
shits going to get fucked up, like not with just me & geordon like with everyone, im scared that im going to accidently do something and BAM everythings over
it's not a peachy feeling thats for sure, and then of course, the guilt i STILL feel with dalton and michael. when will that EVER go away, its honestly killing me, how come i friggen still obsesse with that shit, it happened FOREVER ago ahh fuckk.
although it does feel pretty damn good to like one person, and not secretly want someone else. yeah that sounds asshole, but that's how it was. fuck everything, i need to get outt again, i need to go do something and have fun, cept im sickk & DIEING! arghh!
oh well, maybe this weekend will be fun, doubt it, but you never know!
kay so today did my civics exam, boringest shit ever, it was so long & hard, i defeinetly failed, i guess ill be doing it again next year woo :|
fuckkkk, kay so basically in the last 3 days, ive been to school for 2 periods. im probably failing everything cause i didnt bring any homework home or anything, ahh & at home all ive been doing is working on my site & watching movies & playing video games. i must have watched the notebook & dirty dancing havana nights a BILLION times, although they are like the best movies ive ever seen ahah
i need a fariggan life! and i need to finish my detention with karley! i have to start going to friggen school! we need to get back in PARTAYYY MODE.
well, i think tony hawk american wastland is calling my name :P so im outt, lataaahh hawtiess

xo kayyyy


where i can run
just as fast as i can
to the middle of nowhere
to the middle of my frusterated fears
and i swear
your just like a pill

well, today was shit
worst mood ever
& there isn't exactly a reason to it, well kinda, but im pretty friggen emotional this week aha, today i came home from school and just cried, im not sure why, but i just cried until my eyes hurt. then i started thinking, how come im not happy? i have everything i want & have wanted why can't i be happy? well im pretty sure i can answer my own question. because im selfish and i want more. i wish i could go back and do everything differently i wish i didnt have to go to school and see all the people ive fucked over. i wish i could look at the person i love and block everything else out, i wish for fucken once me & everyone else could be happy. i wish everyone would be happy with me. i guess i don't regret everything, because i know that i wanted it but i do regret not listening to me, i wish i would have just shut everyone out and did what i wanted from the start. it would have made things alot easier. i would have all my friends, i would have the people i once could trust.
then at lunch we had a talk about our boyfriends, and i know it was just a silly little talk that teenaged girls talk about when they have little boyfriends but my story really was horrible. i basically stalked (okay so that words a little more of an exageration but oh well) him for a year and a half while i was going out with one of his best friends. then when i broke up with his best friend, all i could think about was him, but he had a girlfriend. so i moved onto another one of his friends and fucked everything up with him, then when everything was fucked to the moon, i moved on to my boyfriend. what's wrong with me? that's the worst thing i've ever heard. like i LOVE my boyfriend, i always have ovbiously, but theres so much shit i wish i didn't do, i just want everything to be perfect, but everything that seems right to me, really isn't. like im not sure what to call myself, slut? whore? selfish? like i don't know anymore, i don't know what to do or what to say to make shit better, i used to be able to look at a problem and tell if it was worth it or not, now i let it take advantage of me, i dont look for what's right, i look for whats right now then i wonder why i get so caught up and so screwed. i have no one to blame but myself
so much for being fucken happy, i screw myself in to far & i can't fix it this time & it KILLS me, cause i can talk my way out of everything, but im tired of lieing to everyone.
ahah man do i ever suck at fucking life now don't i
i guess i just have to suck it up because this is as good as it will ever get, i fucked myself over, and now i have to deal with it
well at least i still have my girls & umm dylan ahah, no matter how bad i fuck things over at least i can cry or complain or scream at someone, what would i friggen do without them

anyways, shit, this is the longest thing ive ever written and i feel so much better.
im going to go get ready to go to kates, i need to get out of here im going crazyyy aha
lataaa hawtiess
xo kayy

only one quote today cause im to lazy to make a lj-cut & im not listening to any music at the momentttt

"there's only one thing im really scared of, and that's you finally realizing how great you are, and that you deserve better that me, and then you're going to leave me, with nothing but false hopes & broken dreams"

kay well im bored & i don't feel like working on my site, so i thought i would post a few quotes that i found today in my journal ♥

i have seen the bluest skies, rainbows that would make you cry, i have seen days that changed my life, i ave seen the brightest star shine like a diamond in the night i have seen all of this and more but i've never seen eyes more beautiful that yours

want to see how much i love you, go outside when its raining and catch the drops on your tounge the ones you catch are how much you love me, and the ones you miss are how much i love you

she dosen't care if you call and wake her up in the middle of the night she hates arguing but you know she's good at it, she's terrified of the dark, but when she thinks of you, she smiles, she loves the way you stare at her and she wouldn't change that for the world

i love being in love, its when i feel alive, its when everything is bigger, brighter, better, more colourful, more vivid and more exciting

highschool students are cannibals, they feed off your broken heart while you watch and then shrug and offer you a bloody, apologetic smile

cross our hearts and pray to die, promise me your lips wont sneak another lie, slipping into this daze once more, there's no way i can keep my heart off the floor, insecure contracts of the way we feel, say anything just don't make a big deal, i couldn't believe the lies you had in store, choking on your words you promised, i love you more

dont you remember all those times when we had forever and the night would never end, its sad that forever could end so fast, and the sun rose before the moon was even allowed to glow

kay thanks it, i got all these quotes from other journals ;
credit to them!

xo kay

woahh, kay haven't updated in a while!
today was the first day back from the march break, boo
i hateee school & the people & the teachers & work ahah
im so friggen dead, all march break i would go to bed at 6 in the morning and get up at like 3 in the afternoon, and then today i get up at 7 :| im honestly going to fariggan dieeee!
this march break was okay i guess, i didn't do all the things i wanted to, but at least i didn't have to get up at seven o'clock in the fucken morening to get ready for school. that makes me happy ahah,
anywhoo! last night me and geordon like got into our first fight , it wasn't anything big i guess, but it was still a fight, we didn't say much afterwards, then he went offline, and i was so mad cause he didn't actually talk to me about it he just went offline. after an hour he ended up calling me aha, we're good now though, i can't stay mad at him, i love him to muchh
anyways, im in sooo friggen much trouble ahah, nine hours of detention, SO much homework (that im probably not going to end up doing), and im failing pretty much everything. all my teachers hate me ahhh, i guess that's my fault, cept righter, she's a bitch && i hope she falls down the stairs! :P anywhoo! there's nothing else really that's happening, i lead a boring life lmfao

i don't want to go another day,
so im telling you exactly what is on my mind,
seems like everybodies breaking up,
throwing there love away,
but i know i got a good thing right here,
that's why i say,
nobodys going to love me better,
ima stick with you forever ♥

woahh, haven't updated in soo long! kay well it's march break woo! so far it isn't the funnest hopfully it will get better though! the other day i went to the movies and saw pink panther :| waste of money! if i would have known there wasn't actually a pink panther i wouldn't have went! yesturday was geordons birthdayyy! me and karley went to the mall and bought his birthday present, took sexy pictures & bought hawt shades! ahah, then afterwards went over to jeffreys to hang out. well let's just say it was one interesting night!

im so happy me and geordon are going out, i've never felt as happy as i do now. it's amazing, he's amazing. it's crazy how things work out in the end =)

xo kayy *
one more day until me and geordon have been going out for one whole fricken month!
love you babe

i need you like water,
like breath, like rain,
i need you like mercy from heavens gate,
there's a freedom in your arms,
that carrys me through,
i need you,

bored in english singing a song ;)

it's a damn cold night, trying to figure out what's right, wont you take me by the hand take me somewhere new, i don't know who you are but i, i'm with youu *